I hope I can still hear his voice. I wish I can still listen to his praises. I pray I can still hug him.
He
was just an ordinary man. A typical Filipino tatay, or father per se. But fr me, he was a different and a noble person. He had a great
plan, not just a mere simple plan but indeed a great ambition. The ambition was not
plainly for himself, but for the sake of our family. I always remember
him bragging to his friends and barkadas that someday he knew that I will become a
notable person in our community. That someday, I will bring the family to a
higher level. That someday, I will not be like them anymore, and I will live totally
opposite from the illiteracy and dirty jobs trapped them.
That was my "Papa." For others, he was a typical father, yes. But he is the greatest man I've ever known compared to Galileo, Isaac Newton, Neil Armstrong or whosoever. He was a man of dignity. A man of reputable principle; one who fights what is right and what is morally accepted. Above all, he is more than a typical father because he always finds time to us, mend our needs, played at times, and raised us well.
The
old, brown, yet dignified face he possessed is vividly registered still
in my memory. He is a great man. He takes care of us. He even attended regular meetings in
school every time the schol's PTCA called for one.
All along, although he didn't vocally told us, I know fr sure that Papa loved us. I can feel it though he never uttered those words to us.
I
enjoyed work and play with him accompanying us. I can still remember
the laughter, the joy, the smile in our faces every time he used to play
fun with all of us, his 5 children.
But
all these, are mere memories now. I cannot have his tangible presence
with us. I can no longer hear his voice. I can no longer listen to his
praises and encouragement. I can no longer have him back. He is gone.
I
feel jealous upon seeing children who still have their
parents close with them. To see a child whose father or a mother
accompanying him or her to school, or playing with them in a park, is a
scene irritating my eyes. There and then, I felt a river of tears
because I never had the chance to experience those basic needs of a
child.
I
am in grief because I never had the chance to tell him how proud we
were to be his children. I never had the opportunity to let him know how
much we care for him; that we were so lucky to have him as our Papa. I
never had the opportunity to give him what he deserve to have. I never
had the opportunity to show him my achievements. Perhaps there could
never be worst than delivering your Valedictory Speech in a large crowd
but knowing that your father is at home on his bed, nakaratay sa kama
and losing him in a matter of 6 days after that.
The time he spent with us was so short. But I guess he was happy once in his life to have us.
I
still believe that someday, we will cross our ways together. Surely not
on this world but the life after this. There, we will surely let him
know those unspoken words that we, his family had always wanted him to
know.
I love you Papa!
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